Hello everyone. I am writing this post desperate for help to start my red pill joruney.

I am 19 years old. Started my "self improvement" journey when I was 16 years old, close to 0 action though, only reading etc.

I fucked 2 girls all of my life, one when I was 16 (GF) and another one lately who's my ex-gf. I pretty much suck in bed, not confident in my abilities and I finish VERY fast.

I have been trying to approach girls since I was 16. Still, never approached in my life and still afraid of talking to strangers out of the blue.

I am an 'introvert', my whole childhood and to this day I get called the quiet guy (not with my close friends though, when I'm in a known environment I'm funny and outgoing) and I'm having trouble keeping conversations flowing, I suck at small talk and rarely do I manage to run a flowing conversation with someone.

I've had 3 relationships, 2 of them broke up with me because I was breaking frame and acting kinda needy\beta at some point in the relationship. (Probably happens when I let go and start expressing my emotions).

Now my GF broke up with me. I knew it was wrong to go into a relationship now because I don't have my shit together yet and I'm still that beta dude.

I have a small to-non existent social circle. In my army when you're 18 you have to go to the army but because I couldn't go to the combat I managed to get released so I can focus on my dreams.

I want to end it all and start fixing myself. I know I'm young and some of you will probably say 'youre young you have time' but I want to start fixing everything NOW.

What I want to achieve;

I want to start approaching girls casually. I don't like the idea of pickup and hitting on girls for hours straight but I do want to incorporate game into my daily life and approach girls whenever I see them wherever. I'm having SERIOUS trouble with it though as I can't even talk to strangers (I never initiate, always something stopping me)

I want to spin plates, I want to be abundant and start improving my sex life. I'm pretty sure It's possible at 19. I've had a dry spell of 3 years, so you can get the idea of how hard it is for me to meet girls.

I want to start being that outgoing person who can strike up conversations whenever he wants. and not that quiet guy who's always in his head.

Only thing I'm currently doing is lifting, I've been lifting for 2 years now and I know I look good. Just need some more tweaks.

I have a mission; I want to be a digital entrepreneur and make money doing ecommerce. I just don't take much action as I should be, but I know I'll figure it out .

Any advice would be appreciated. Thank you.

TLDR: 19 year old quiet introverted guy with a very little social circle wants to start taking control of his life and become the outgoing, charismatic, successful version of himself he always dreamed of being. Gaming girls, spinning plates, living TRP lifestyle.