I am a musician with plans on turning it into a career. Lately, I've been pushing my limits and focusing hard on my songwriting. I'm consciously trying to push out as many songs as quickly as possible, all up to my standards. I used to only write when I felt like it or when I'd get a random hit of inspiration. I'm starting to feel this is a flawed mentality and in reality I'm hamstering away my true potential. I want to summon my muse at will. I feel like I have a million songs inside of my subconscious, ready to be written. I believe writers block is an illusion and that I can always be productive with the creative process on a consistent schedule, one way or the other. I'm just having trouble manifesting results.

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What happens is I force myself through writers block and don't make any excuses and it works for a while. I end up surprising myself with how good and fast I can write. But then I hit this wall of negativity in my mind where it feels like I've lost all passion for music and the process becomes a chore. I would be ok with this and just suck it up if it didn't feel like I was wasting time trying to write in this mindset. Sometimes I'll sit at a piano for hours and come up with jack shit. Sometimes I'll come up with a few ideas for songs I can build off of. I usually just doodle around until something works. And I guess that's kind of the problem. I feel like every good song I've written has just been due to luck. Like, I hit the right keys in the right order to make exactly the melody I wanted by accident. But with the amount of times i've "gotten lucky", i cant help but feel like i was in a certain state of mind which allowed my ideas to grow and build upon themselves easily. I'm just trying to make myself the best I can be obviously, but I hit burnout mode hard and alot more often than I would like.

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I understand the creative process is similar for other arts- comedy, painting, etc. so I'm asking you all what you have found personally to help you and what your philosophies are on the topic.