Besides keeping active in other areas of my life and having a purpose, which I try my best to stick to, once I get ghosted, she goes cold, or the plate (which I’ve admittedly caught oneitis for) breaks, it takes a huge toll on my mental health and I fall into seriously depressing thought loops. This has happened too many times to count. Each time I’ve emerged from it, but my fuck is it a miserable couple of months until the feelings subside.

Having abundance doesn’t seem to counter this. By all accounts I’ve maintained abundance yet still am prone to oneitis from the “hottest” or most fun girl.

Do I have deep seated issues that anyone else has experience dealing with?