Hey guys, I moved up north to study computer science at college.
The place is a shit hole, and nothing is much done here.
But it's quiet in comparison to the city life I've been in, so it's the perfect opportunity to reinvent myself.
I've been aware of the red pill since age 17, and implemented it since age 19.
Cut story short : I'm PDD and had social problems since early childhood, because my father never let me know, though I'm grateful for him. I can't trust him to be open. I've been working 2 jobs for the last year to save for studying. I only had one relationship for 1.5 years the breakup pumped my workout. (said she stopped feeling attracted)
During that time I hit on every female at my city to gain exp. (No success, many rejections, many flakes, I got drunk on the one date I got) I'm not coming back so they'll never hear from me. Deleted Facebook and Instagram.
I've started using the mind illuminated to practice mindfulness, so I'm virtually the only guy in class who isn't Ritalin or alts. My morning workouts right now are morning runs (currently 15 min 10km/h) 4 times a week and small exercises during study breaks, (stomach vacuums and hand grips.) twice a week I do strength calisthenics right now (will increase soon):
40 push ups
120 sit ups
30 back arches
45 side sit ups (each side)
40 round push ups
35 wide squats
25 regular squats
15 bridge on the head
pull ups I'm struggling 3 sets of 7 with 4 min breaks *5 times a day
In order to keep up studying without overdoing I'm completing the time in class to the home practice to 8 hours total. (ex: I studied at college for 4 hours than at home I'll practice for an extra 4 hours). During the time I'm always on the lookout for scholarship. Because the college is a government effort, scholarships are easily received, I'm not paying my first year of tuition and on the look out for more for the 2nd year.
I'm eating more healthy than ever now, my roomies share the goal of improving fitness (Mine is martial arts, another is gains, 2 wanna lose weight) so we share food expenses. my diet mainly conssit of : rice, chicken breast, eggs, vegetables. fruits. (1900-2100 calories, 63 kg, 170cm) We have extra additions for weekends : ground beef, red wine... but we never touch anything beyond water.
The main problem I'm seeing and this is regard to PDD, I can't read intuitively body languages or emotions. Studies take a toll since I'm tired to smile (takes me a lot of effort). I stick to the roomies I got, the place I'm at is considered to be a very good community. But in order not to ruin it I only meet up when I'm invited, or one of our more outgoing roomies brings someone. In order to improve my ability of socialization of increase my social game. How would I go do it?
