I'm new to trp and have been reading some parts sometimes, during my 2-year LTR I always felt I got a special one and it wouldn't happen to me. Well not only did it happen, I realized I was lying to myself the whole time ignoring red flag after red flag, just staying in due to emotional attachment. Even after it was over I didn't handle it perfectly. I'm swallowing harsh truths after harsh truths on here, don't cohabitate, lost my frame multiple times, didn't focus on my own life so now I'm left depressed. I know I should see it as a blessing because now I will be a different person because of this experience. If I didn't have the experience, I would be the same age of 27 with no lessons learned. I know the depression will eventually go away and I will start working again, lifting, etc. But the part that doesn't seem to go away is this feeling that she was a 10 in looks, and it will be impossible for me to find one again, and wishing I didn't screw up with her specifically. Even wishing I handled the breakup better.