I see her everyday. I got into this by acting aloof, flirting and being the cool guy in the group. She has a bf but that didn't stop her from putting her hands all over me, even in public.

Cause I didn't want to become anyone's orbiter, I escalated, and guess what... she turned me down.

I said "fuck it" and moved on. However, here's the thing: whenever she's around now I feel the need to treat her like shit. I mean I don't go all the way towards that purpose, but if she's hanging out around me and says some shit, I call her out on it or mock her for it.

At first she was really reactive in a positive sense (treated it like flirting), now she's slowly getting pissed and offended, and I can understand that. I know what I'm doing is not attractive and I don't want it to be, but I don't want to shit on someone for no reason.

Another thing that makes me mad is the fact she treated me really well before, talking about making favors for me, being available, etc, which is why I escalated. When she turned me down my brain switched gears cause "she was using me for attention", so after pushing her away she resisted, and now she keeps her distance.

I feel like a creep now...

It started as an aloof "I don't really care about you" and now it became "you are pain in the ass", and not in a fun way. All I want is to be independent of her, not give a fuck if she's there or not, and especially not act butthurt whenever she asks if "I'm angry for some reason"...

How the fuck can I control this? I don't want to be like this, but I just can't help it... is this normal? any ideas guys?