due to various issues i won't get into (genetic familial disease but also dysfunction/trauma) i am fucked up to be frank and a bit mentally ill sadly.

i need to go to YEARS of therapy before i am 1/4 of what normies will be. essentially i will be playing ENDLESS catchup for the rest of my life will the "normies" are not even working very hard to get twice of what i will achieve.

YES i can lift 'till the cows come home and "hold frame" but in my situation it will only go so far (i will STILL do it) but to me its "the juice is not worth the squeeze)

Not in an "incel" way but should I kinda "not make women my priority?"

lemme explain. I have NOTHING against women they are PERFECT just the way they are :) it is ME that is the problem (and factors out of my control).

(If i were a woman i would NOT want a mentally ill man because he could not take care of me and father my children so i really do NOT hold it against women that they don't want to date me).

the only people who hit on me are gay guys and "women" who happen to have dicks to put it nicely lol.

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-so should i just say: "hey not all apaches can be chief" and kinda go my own way? (NOT mgtow) but more like how priests/monks did where they would devote their lives to intellectual persuites and their studies etc.