I don't know how to say this, or if this is the right place (I hope so).

I feel like I was an ex RPW, or something I don't know what.

My relationship went like this:

I had to be under a certain weight, over a certain income, have a certain hair length, wear certain clothes and gain the approval of certain people.

I had to cook certain things, provide certain things.

It was this overly challenging role, like a job that paid me in high praise but little else.

Well time wore on and I didn't have the capacity to function in my job duties anymore. It became a job I quit. I ran from it. It was all work and no reward.

The thing is, after I hit the wall, and became just an ordinary human with problems that wasn't allowed.

I was replaced by someone else.

However the someone else isn't perfect either. Matter of fact the new person is guilty of cardinal sins before the entry point.

My X ran a tight ship. After I left the tight ship all but sank so I guess it is what it is.

However the two of them do OK, so now I'm here going, what just happened to my life?

I put all this huge effort into being someone I wasn't to please someone who couldn't care less anyway.

Red pill refugee?