I have been reading TRP for 2 years and finally decided to make my first post so be gentle (English is not my first language)

How a "unicorn" made me go bluepill

Back in the days when I was 17 I started a relationship with a girl, lets call her Mary. I entered our Relationship with the attitude that like most girls she will one day find another guy that she values more than me or just gets bored and cheats due to the fact that I have been her only sexual partner. I never put much effort in the relationship and she loved me for it and treated me like a king, while I cheated on her on every possible occasion (on my count with about 40 other girls). I did not want to get dumped by her after a few years and have no experiences with other girls aka wasting my youth. But then everything changed!

After being together for 4 years she started acting cold after attending a music festival at the end of the summer holidays which I could not join her on, because I had big exams coming up in College. I couldn´t figure out why she was acting weird so I started thinking: We are together for 4 years she has probably never cheated on me, she loves me and does everything for me… maybe she is a Unicorn ( pls punch me for that thought) and i have to put more effort in our relationship. So I decided to stick the finger in my mouth and puke up the red pill. Started being faithful, doing romantic shit, always went to her place instead of mine blablabla you all know what I mean.

A few days later Mary calls me up to meet me at a restaurant and I agreed. I thought we would meet alone but when I arrived she was sitting there with her 4 closest friend who all gave me the you poor bastard are gonna get dumped look. You probably know whats next. We went outside and she told me she needs a break to figure things out and assured me it’s not because of another guy and I told her she can have all the time she needs and I really love her (anyone has a time machine so I can go back and slap myself?).

Later that day I got pretty angry at myself and went out with my friends to distract myself from the situation. I took a horny HB6 back home with me but my magic wand was not able to do any magic that night ( fucking emotions) . The next morning I felt like a piece of shit and reminded myself that I still have 2 balls and called up Mary. I went to her house and told her that I wont accept a break and its gonna be all or nothing. So we got back together and everything was fine again until she had a GNO on the weekend and I looked up the clubs pictures the next day to see her sitting really close with a guy I know is a mutual friend of hers who also attended the music festival. I decided not to tell her about it so I could investigate this further without her knowing that I was suspicious.

I knew the code for her mobile phone so I tried to read her messages when she was sleeping, just to find out she had changed the code, this was proof to me that something was going on. We went out to dinner with friends and I acted normal and managed to sneak a peek on her code and send me all her whatsapp chats to my e-mail adress. The texts confirmed my suspicion that she was hooking up with the guy from the music festival, lets call him Jack. So by reading all the texts she was writing with her girls and jack in the past few month I knew in detail what was going on. Sleeping at jacks place getting fucked, discussing the pros and cons of me and jack, what her friends think about the situation, and finding the right moment to get rid of me ( took me ages to find the right texts because those fucking bitches are writing about shopping, headaches and bitching about other girls 90 % of the time). So I confront her, but she is stunned doesn’t say anything and I break up with her. The next days are followed by her blasting my phone with texts and calls until I finally lost my frame completely ( if there even was something left of it). I took