Hello brothas,

Throughout my early childhood I've been gone through some traumatic shit. From rejection from friends, people betraying me, family stuff and bullying. I was always somewhat different and I like that about me. I bring a lot to the table but I never had the chance to express it. This has made me develop some kind of anxiety and over analysis feedback loop which I've been stuck for a while now. On top of that I have used weed to cope with the shit in the past. I know it's all in my head but I seem to be unable change my ways. I seem to have some kind of skills to attract people but I feel I could do much better but theres always something that stops me. And it always goes back to being stuck in my head.

Im 21 now and I want to break out and do the things i want to do. I've realized I haven't really internalized what the red pill philosophy is and I dont seem to have the motivation to keep trying. My mind just gives me negative things to think about before trying something.

Any feedback/advice is highly appreciated. Good luck on your journey