Long time luker. 26yo. Haven't been on here in a while and have been focusing on myself in other areas such as fitness and my job. Happy how far i've come 2 years into my job in IT, making gains and getting back into shape.

At the beginning of the year i had went on a party new years boat cruise with the boys and met this girl. Ideal hottest girl i've been with thus far. Tan brunette and pettite. She was with another group of girls who we knew who had tagged along so thats how we got introduced. Was about the third day in when i actually got to speak and get to know her then on the night of the party. I knew i'd attempt to pull and see where it went.

Drinks were had and dancing then she was starting to feel sick so i looked after her and she had thrown up. At this point i was taking care and making sure she wasn't a mess. Anyways after she had thrown up she was feeling alot better and i said lets go back to her cabin. We were chilling in the bed then the rest was history.

First time i could not finish but took the time to make sure she had a good time. Think the nerves got to me with how hot she was and was so in my head.

The days after that we went back to the cabin multiple times and i finally could finish. I'm feeling like i have a bit of performace anxiety but everytime she said i want you to finish i'd mention not to feel bad and i'm just tired. Sometimes i'm finding it hard to hold my erection which im scared as a result of porn. As of late i have stopped watching porn alogether.

Question here has anyone else had this sort of thing happen and when there finally get with the girl. The performance anxiety kicks in if you're gunna fuck her good? Which then fucks with my head so i need help with what i can do.

Anyways fastforward until after i had met this girl i'd wanted to see her when we were off the boat. She then got into a relationship 2 weeks later with a guy she previously had been seeing. That lasted around 5 - 6 months and then she got into another relationship which now lasted 2 months.

Fastforward until now my buddy actually matched with her on tinder and told me so thats how i knew she was single again. Invited her out to the beach a few days later with my buddy to hang out who had also met her just to catch up. Didnt get to talk to her to much one on one on that day as we were all just enjoying the sun together and swimming.

Anyways she agreed after to hang out after another day and i was quite surprised so i didnt think anything of it. Next date planned was a sun and swim at a public pool we have here in the city.

She lives in an apartment i'd found out by herself currently as her roommate is out overseas. Now things were looking good.

Anyways had a great time with the sun and swim and got back to hers with no resistance at all which was a good sign. Suggested a massage and put some music and we layed and cuddled. We started making out and things were getting heavy but then i began to think yet again in my head.

She said she was on her period and asked if i'd cared which i didn't so more of a green like to go ahead. Went back to the bedroom again making out getting hot and heavy then went to put on the condom and couldn't stay hard to finish yet again. I told it was okay and im tired but in my mind i felt like i had been defeated. Previous night i did have a big one and there was alcohol and drugs were involved. So im thinking also this was a result of my anxiety and performance but i'm trying not to get down on it.

So i've organised and she's agreed to meet again at hers and i said we could cook and make some lunch. Overall im still surprised and not getting my hopes up as she may still flake.

Just wanting some advice with not getting in my head and staying in the moment. Feeling like its my downfall with getting with girls that i have alot more interest in keeping around and seeing.

I'm being very wary and do not want to get attached just due to her past. She also mentions she is a nighclub dancer/stripper. So there are some red flags for me to be careful about.

Got alot in depth with her why she does it but shes opened up with it already being emotionally draining with saying the money is not all as easy as it seems. Again she could be just saying this i do know.

I'm open in continuing to see this girl as she's keen but my anxiety is what is stopping me and my head when it comes to sex.

Need all your thoughts and advice anyone on my situation.

If you read all of this and made it this far i much appreciate it.