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TL;DR - I was raised a BB by a BB. Once i grew into my body in my early years of high school i was approched by sluts that heard of my BP demenor and suffered the consequences on three separate occasions.

Hello everybody. I am new to reddit (lurker for 3+ years before finally creating account.) And very new to this TRP philosophy. I have to say that after surfing this sub and reading other Red Pill material, i can already taste the bitterness of the pill im about to swallow. So, a little background of how i found this community and how it made me realize my BB status. I apologize in advance if it gets too wordy.

Ill start in my freshman year of high school, i just had a very sudden transition over the previous summer out of an awkward body stage and began to play for the football team, so i had alot of girls approaching me and i was overwhelmed by all the attention. With that being said, before this i had little to no female interaction at all and i was raised by my step mother and extremely BP father. Love the man to death. So i responded the way i knew best, being the nice guy. The thing i started to notice was that i was being approached by girls who were known to be major sluts around the school. I looked past it and played the "i dont care about your past" card. I started dating this girl that was a friend of my older sister (also a major slut).

I fell head over heels over her because she would talk about having sex all the time. It never came to fruition as my parents were strict and found some sexts on my phone. They made me stop seeing her but i continued to talk to her on other people's phones as if we were still dating. I came to find out that she was fucking around with her old alphas and it devistated me.

A few months later i began a relationship with another known slut who was way less attractive then the first girl but i was just in it for sex and i still played the BB routine. All that came of that was a minor pp touch before she pulled away and said she "didn't want to ruin what we had". Shortly after i broke it off because i wasnt in it for an LTR with her.

A year later in my sophmore year, i met a girl that would be my first LTR which just ended a year ago. We both were really good friends for a while before we started dating and the relationship transitioned beautifuly into the next level. We also lost our virginities to each other and was having sex every chance we could get. After a while she started to talk to me in a very condescending tone and began to talk about a Chad all the time, mainly about how hot he was. As you may have guessed, she broke it off out of nowhere but continued to still text me saying that she loves and misses me and would ask if i still loved her while holding my hand in the hallway. I found out from her friends that they saw her making out with her Chad at a baseball game. I lost my shit but she just said "i didnt like it" and "i was thinking about you the whole time".

We continued a decent on and off relationship untill we graduated high school. I joined the Air Force and she stayed home to go to college. I broke up with her because i didnt feel like i could trust her to stay faithful in a LDR. After about six months of not speaking she starts to contact me saying that she wants to come see me (im stationed in Las Vegas and she lives in our hometown on the outskirts of Houston). I fell for it and she would come every couple of months (only if i paid for the full trip; also a side note, she managed to boo hoo me into paying one of her student loan bills which was all the money i had at the time.)

I ended up falling back in love and tried to get her to date me again. Im sure she was loving every minute of it too. She also confessed through a long trickle truth process that she had been on the carousel the entire time. I no longer speak to her.

This sub has showed me the error of my ways and im pretty shocked and, to be honest, angry that the way i was raised has completely fucked me multiple times. But using the advice posted to this sub i will use the anger to better myself instead of becoming bitter and blaming women for my mistakes. TRP is indeed hard to swallow but im excited to use it to help take control of my life.