Hi community, just wanted to discuss something with you all, to see whether or not it is just my experience or if someone else has noticed what i am about to talk about.

Throughout the last years of my life (I'll turn 23 in December), I've gotten noticeably uglier than when i was, say, in high school. I've never been super pretty, not even average, I'd say below average. Now, i am aware that I've never even been feminine: always have had a tomboyish style and way of being in general, but still i used to get the attention of men anyway. Unfortunately, as i said before, i got phisically worse: copious hair loss due to chronic stress and thinning of hair, my back got crooked and my face has become gaunt due to not sleeping and eating properly. All this stress and worsening of my phisical aspect and health has definitely been due to mental health conditions I've suffered since i became a teenager (depression, anxiety, BPD, and a period of anorexia who, of course, was praised by people as i lost a lot of weight) who gotten worse through these couple of years due to me deciding to date LVM and consequently getting screwed over.

Now, since i realized the errors of my way, I've noticed a thing:

  • when i was prettier than i am today, men didn't bat an eye when i rejected Them because i wanst interested, (I've never been mean about the way i did it), at most they gave me a bad eye.
  • these days, when i don't give my time to some man who wants me to send nudes or entertain him, i get insulted and called names because i am already ugly so i should be glad somebody gives me their time of the day.