I just saw a girl and an old friend of mine who I had a small crush on way back in college and in high school and even though we're both out of that now I still feel know where near like I'm good enough

If I had this confidence now and I could time travel back into high school then maybe but right now I just don't know anymore

I'll never know if my confidence levels or Financial Security or anything will be good enough and that's the worst part of it is not ever knowing

We all should be around 22 and 23 right now and most girls statistically have probably had a kid or two or have at least have some experience with men and I have absolutely nothing to show as I don't have any sexual experience or money or anything and I never realized just how much of a loser I felt until realizing all of that.

And then I keep thinking even if I start right now and try to max out whatever I think is attractive how long will it be before I'm finally good enough

Don't get me wrong I don't resent her or anything and I actually think she is a really bright girl but I know that I'll never be the type of man that she wants or any girl like her and it's really starting to make me feel just that more suicidal