From 2017 (Almost May) till 2019 (March) I had Depression, I never believed that depression was real, Well it changed my mind. I didn't go to school for 2 years i.e My 11th and 12th Grade. I went to school to give exams only and of course, I scored very poorly. In those 2 years, I stopped using my mobile phone, deleted all of my Social media accounts as I didn't want to talk to anyone, I lied to my best friends that I'll be taking some kind of special studies in a different city. I spent 2 years inside my house and didn't talk to anyone for 2 years (Except my parents), and hell I even lied to my parents, when my parents used to ask me "Why are you always in your room?", I used to tell them "I am studying", My parents bought me "Video lectures" for better prep, I lied to them and didn't watch them at all. I never talked to my parents about my depression. It was one of my old friends elder brother (Who was like 11 years older than me), told me to calm down and explain to me what is depression, He helped me a lot, He kept this a secret from my parents and anyone I knew. I also lied to him, He told me to socializes with people, Go to school, Go out with friends. I told him I did all of this but I did nothing.

2019 April, After giving my exams in March, I went to join an Army training camp, I didn't make it to the army but it was very fun, I felt so good after such a long time.

2019, August I joined an engineering college, The most beautiful babe in college was in my class, She and I participated in a college activity and we got closer, After a few days I started dating her, She was more into me than I was into her, I was all confused, how it was possible?? Why life seems good all of a sudden?? After 2-3 Months, I did something (Pretty serious stuff which affected her) which I thought was Right but she said "You're wrong, Don't ever talk to me". So, I apologized to her and showed a shit ton of AFC behavior so she wouldn't leave me but it didn't work. A week later, I found out she was dating 4 other guys for 7-9 Months, I was kind of broken at that moment. I didn't tell her that "I know about those other guys", One day she said "Let's be just friends", I said "NO". I wasn't depressed, I was just sad.

November 2019, Found my best friends on social media, sent them a text, and met at a local cafe to have a chat, I told them the truth, They were not disappointed, They acted like I never left. They acted the same, There behavior didn't change towards me, It made me happy. I told them about the situation with the girl and we just talked. It's November 2020 and we go out every Sunday to have fun.

September 2020, I discovered TRP, I read TRM and the book of pook (Took me 2 months to complete em), I started reading NMMNG a few days ago, it really defined me, My focus is not on the girls but to understand myself and achieve my goals, I started going to the gym (lifting), It makes me feel good. For now, I am going to read a few books like:

-When I say no I feel guilty

-How to win friends and influence people

-Games People Play

-What EveryBODY is Saying

-The Power of Now

I will think about picking up girls 3-4 months later, as I am focusing on my college projects.