I've never liked easy things in life so hit me with your best.

I'm 21, just begining the adult life. I am in medical school and my studies are pretty on point. I've started going to a fighting gym 2 months ago and I'm making good progress. I've got a caring family, close friends who are by my side and who I can rely on, and recently begun my first ever relationship.

Everything looks fine, doesn't it? Except when I get back home, when I got no friends or people to see, I feel lonely and start acting beta as fuck. One day I fucking cried, I was mad at myself for being this pathetic. I kept saying to myself that there's nothing wrong with my life, and asked why the hell was I feeling like this. There is absolutely no need for me to feel this sad. I haven't lost shit and I've got a pretty good life.

But mentally, I know I still have to work especially on this bit, because it is distracting me from being on my mission.