Six months I posted a query in asktrp and also relationship_advice (as I wanted a few opinions) .. It was about me being suspicious of my LTR's texts with a guy and - basically - how over a year I was not in "existence" regarding all the shit we had done. Also, things like sending him pics before going out and then her forwarding them to me, inviting him over for dinner when I was out of town etc. And yes .. I got told "gtfo" - even in relationship advice. However.. of course I didn't heed that advice and took the easier route of just glossing over and hobbling along.

At the time I confronted her about this and ofc "why the fuck are you looking in my phone" came out but never ever an apology or an attempt to reconcile.

Anyway.. Turns out for the last 12 months, while she has been "going out with friends" (while I've been staying at mine), she's been having this dude over for dinner. I also saw something about her bragging to her female friend regarding her being polyamorous - which now kind of ties in to why she genuinely and internally thought she was doing nothing wrong.. which is fucking crazy as the first rule of a poly relationship is "informed consent" (something she may have forgotten regarding talking to me about it).

So yeah.. this time I gtfo. Spent this morning removing and erasing every memorabilia from my place. Still going through some mood swings anger / depression. Got through denial pretty fucking quick, not going to even consider bargaining. Don't think I'm ready to quite hit the dating scene just yet but a good friend has twisted my arm to join his crossfit gym so here's to listening next time.