Hey guys, well, I'm quite (idk how to describe it) mood rn. I was with a girl alone in her room, but I did not do anything with her. She stays near where I live but I only really met her 2 days ago

For reference I'm 16 kissvirgin. That's because I was a social shut in, never left my room, had no friends. Only after finding trp did I start going out the last few months, actually made friends, went on dates etc. Etc.

But today was different. The girl just came to my house, we walked for sometime, then she says she wanna go to her house and says theres no one there. We went to her room and we sat on her bed, but I immediately became jittery. She obviously wanted to kiss me but I got up and started walking around. After sometime she said her parents were returning so we went out again

I realise what I've done. I could have gotten laid today, for the first time, something I've dreamed of since I was 12, and something I thought I'd never have a chance to do. Going on dates and shit is fine but when the time came i didnt do anything.

Idk wtf happened there, but idk why tf I didnt do anything when I had the chance. I dont even feel bad about this...

Have any of u experienced this before? Most my friends are virgins, so ig I wanna know how ur first time was? How did you get the balls to go for it?