why am i so angry?

Been reading trp for a while now and always knew it was true, but for the past 3 years I’ve been severely depressed. I was in a relationship for a while and it ended right around the time i first started seeing a doctor and finally getting treatment. I’m still not really happy but after the meds and a lot of hard work this term I’m back to straight As and have been eating healthy and lifting and have the best physique ive ever had and am looking forward to continuing to get better.

The only problem is that now that I’m finally doing better and have things in my life to be proud of, it’s like the anger phase has come right back. For a while I wanted to not focus on females because just being depressed and how hard it has been to work out of that hole and how much focus it takes to not fall back off the wagon. But lately now that I am looking the way I should and getting the academic success i should, I’ve just become so angry. Why can’t I internalize awalt and just not care? I hadn’t thought about any of this for the longest time until now after months of the hardest work of my life.

I feel like I must have some internalized incel mindset where now that i succeeded I deserve a unicorn or something but it’s just frustrating to let this stuff affect my focus and mindset all of the sudden.