It kind of makes me feel like I have to forgive some people for hurting me, men and women, and mostly my-self for inflicting pain in some of them and making them my enemies out of my own ego, in order to grow. It's only natural for someone to disrespect you if you've treated them like shit, but what's done is done.

I felt so weak the previous first days that I had to meditate and find out what's bothering me. It's mostly that, now that people are dying and the world is a chaotic ghost town I realized I hurt some people, I've made mistakes, I needed to forgive my-self above all and treat human beings with the same amount of respect they treat me. I've been a shitty person, especially with women.

For all we know we could be victims of this crisis too one day and not survive. I don't want to die thinking I'll be around twice to change things.

A few smoking sessions late at night and some meditation helps me come to good terms with this and building a routine even at home keeps me sane during the lockdown. Everything should be in moderation though.

What has changed for you?