Help me learn, if you take the time to read this in its entirety, I sincerely thank you

Been a lurker for 4 years, read the sidebar and plenty of other material/books prevalent in this community over those years. have been through a number of breakups and I never would post about them here because I always know the only solution: break all contact forever. For this situation, this is still the appropriate answer but I’m looking for insight and to hear anyone else’s experiences similar to mine

Since applying TRP to my life and experiencing a ton of growth mentally/physically, I have came a long way and a lot I attribute to TRP. Currently 26 years old, six figure salary, fit/built, work in public safety in a very well reputable career field, and have an N-count around 35ish and many ONS, LTRs, parking lot blowjobs from the tinder slut, etc. I’ve gone through the phases of redpill and now accept women’s nature.

My situation is this. A week ago, my LTR of about 6 months broke up with me. This girl 22F, and I and I are both around an 8 SMV. She has known the whole time that I can do better than her, and has made it obvious that she is more invested in me than I am in her. Nonstop into me, passed all the shit tests routinely, never once denied me sex and has always been enthusiastic with it.

She started out as an awesome plate and pushed for LTR and for the first time in a while I said fuck it sure, and for the most part it was great. In the last year or 2 I have been been getting bored of all the bar sluts and meaningless sex. This girl has been so sweet to me, always wants to spend time with me, and just “go on an adventure!!” She never did anal before me “allegedly” lol, but I made it a once in a while thing and she enjoyed it.

About a week ago, she broke up via text one morning stating

Her: “Blah blah blah I have too much anxiety about our relationship, I’ve had it for a while and it wont go away, its best we don’t talk anymore, we can meet up tonight if you want to talk about it”

I instantly thought, aight fuck it this is over.

Me: “i can respect that and I wish you well”

Its important to note that the night prior to this breakups I was being sort of a dick, as she wanted to fuck and I wasn’t in the mood so I brushed it off, which I think made her feel unwanted, and as she was leaving the house she was kinda making noise while my roommates were asleep, and I kinda got pissed at her, I saw her facial expression turn sad as she left

Well hindsight truly is 20/20

Well a few days went by with no more contact after that, and ill admit partly due to being so bored of the quarantine and shit going on I actually started thinking about it, and I decided maybe this isn’t your typical “I’m over this, time to get with chad who’s already lined up” and that maybe she was feeling hurt since I was emotionally closed for the most part, didn’t let her sleep over much, and random other shit.

I end up texting her 2 days later asking what she wants to do with her shit at my crib and we get to talking about why she feels the way she does, basically she stated that the whole time she felt like I didn’t even like hanging with her or care about her and that I never really complimented her besides during sex, etc. I thought about this and I feel like she is being honest and I am to blame. She then was being more receptive and said she feels like this is the wrong way to go about this breakup and is still willing to work things out and shit. I was about to be receptive until she sent another text stating if it continues that this will “happen again” and i kinda reacted, got put off by that and told her that if she is going to threaten me with another break up already she can just stick with her decision if she wants, but then she back peddles and asks what I want. Im honest and let her know that I so enjoy having her around and enjoy dating her but this is her decision. She says some more bullshit.

I respond the next day to her text, long story short I tell her that I admit I am somewhat closed off and I am willing to be more open with her. she then says responds saying basically she appreciates me saying that, but still she needs to “work on her grades now” and our relation ship was unhealthy for us. Its clear she also googled some dumb shit on psychologist blogs written by femnazi women because she also said we had an anxious/avoidant relationship (lol).

My last response was “ok” and we have been no contact since about 5 days ago. She removed me on fb, ig, and snap.

I wont be the one to reach out to her obviously, but I am wondering if she reaches out to me, especially since social distancing is in effect, how to proceed.

It would be nice to mend things as I feel it would be so easy since she was so into me, but I don’t have much expectations for that since I know this is pretty much unrepairable (and rollo’s rule about digging through trash)

Also wonder if it would be possible to somehow plate her.

She truly is a good person and I think I was too AF, not enough BB, and she bounced.

Im trying to just rationalize this like a normal human who actually cares about other people for once, rather than hear the “you’re a pussy with onities bitch!” Read the fucking the sidebar!!” “go lift!!” “Spin more plates faggot!!”

Anyone have experience with being to AF ruining a LTR and the aftermath?