TL;DR: Girl I dated used me for older beta while she still had fun with fuckboys.

Girl I dated showered me with sex then had me commit, then had me eat thanksgiving with her family, then help her move into an apartment, then I had to walk her dog when she was at work. She resented me for not having to work like her, and I think not having the money to pay her way.

She wanted me to meet her after work late at night. She wanted to talk to me on the phone daily. These things were to see if I was getting pussy elsewhere.

I realized later I was the older "acceptable" BF that gave her status and she took home to mom and who was supposed to be a provider type person. Its clear I was designed this way by society. But I also had a lot of experiences that pointed to RP, but they were in my subconscious. I was also reading RP.

When I first met her I looked alpha and acted that way, she wasn't really interested. She said later that she changed her mind because I was so confident and cocky. Now that I think about it, she maybe had to vet me first, maybe to ask the girls or look at my FB, to find out that I am a beta who thinks he's an alpha, aka, prey.

She broke up, I mean she "Was broken up with" by her ex, two days before she broke down my door to get my dick. Later I saw a text from a younger guy "when do you get off work." Later in the relationship, she started having different hours at work, like she did with me at the beginning. She called me BABE, I think so that she didn't get the names mixed up. She shaved her vagina and showed me, but I don't think it was for me. She had all these male friends. Young men from work would show up to help her move. It was like she was saying to me "you're a bitch."

I slowly stopped wanting to fuck her, and I think that was in the design. Women know how to turn off a mans sexuality, by covert bitchiness, complaining, disrespect, etc. I finally broke up with her via phone and there was no emotion in her voice, she was ready. She wanted to be friends though, and after that stopped treating me like a man, covertly. It was meant I guess to continue to control me and kill me as a male. She later character assassinated me to all the people in our social circle as a "Cheater."

It was all planned. If you think you're a RPer and you're not, women will play that against you. She will treat you like you're "the man" and milk you for resources, while fucking tattooed fuck boys.

The common theme I see among "beta males" is fear. Not fear of women, just fear in general. If you work on your fear, literally learn to calm yourself, your mind will clear and you'll see through all the bullshit, naturally. That's why they say "fear is the mind killer." It makes you dumb, it makes you afraid and to cling to anything or anyone like a mommy, the opposite of abundance. Beta males are men with lots of fear.

I was watching some kids play earlier and the boys were playing ball and the girl was trying to fit in but couldn't, and the boys didn't much care about her. What happens to males that go from that to being emotionally attached to females and dependent on them and falling for their makeup and games and other bullshit? The answer is that the boys playing ball and having a good time will grow up to be normal men. The boys that grow up to being beta males are at home not socializing and making friends with other males and bonding, which all reduces fear. There's no girls around these boys for them to understand that girls are just inferior boys, not much different to us.

We feel bad for girls because they can't really play ball so we give them support roles like bringing snacks and drinks or something. They're not supposed to be worshiped. The power of the boob should just bring attraction. A woman is in her natural element being on the outskirts of the men, playing a support role, and being railed by all the men. Men like to dominate women and women like to submit to men. No emotional attachment, no manipulation, none of that. Just good fun. Can't have fun if you're isolated from people and filled with fear.