Summary: my personal preferences makes me wonder if I'm a sadist and whether I should take care of that or not.

Body: The title pretty much sums it up. I'd rather just watch something with her than just kissing without getting aggressive. I don't know if I'm a sadist or something like that, but it just makes me feel insanely good.

I also enjoy applying some fear play sometimes, but I've stopped doing that because of the chances of the girl wanting to stop the fun time.

I don't know if I should start filtering the parties I go to by themes or the places I go to, to find more people that are 'ok' with the way I am. Suggestions?

So far I've seen that rock-themed parties are more likely to have girls that like some rough aggression, but AFAIK this is just some anecdotal impression. Pop and electronic parties have shown me the less interesting people to interact with.

I feel very little to no pleasure when just kissing and plain old vanilla making out, but lots of pleasure when pulling girls hair, biting and sucking off of their necks, and more aggressive stuff like that. Been wondering if I should filter the parties I go to, or just frequent different places.

This post is an edited version from another one I made when I still didn't know TRP. I removed a few parts that regarded getting happier just by helping girls in need (huge orbiting) and them winning my heart through good conversations (I don't trust what they say after seeing a few girls going AWALT and in the process of seduction the main subject of conversation almost doesn't matter).

However, the pleasure and passion for rough aggression is still in there. I can easily turn down a girl that wants some kisses (abundance mentality, there's lots of girls out there wanting just that), but I never turn down a girl who's wanting to bite my neck, or even worse, prone to letting me bite her and pull her hair as I want.

I know I'm overthinking, but this time I want to extract some lessons from these experiences and see it under a TRP lens.