I feel myself becoming extremely cold. My heart is starting to harden, and I'm beginning to not care about so much. And I'm just now starting to realize that it's perfectly okay. I like it this way. I feel more free this way.

I used to be that nice guy that everyone loved, hardly ever said no to people, yada yada bullshit. We all know him, is him, or used to be him. I'm not a dick, or a asshat. But I no longer tolerate disrespect.

MGTOW is truly freeing. Along with taking the red pill about various other topics of society. I can clearly see so many problems. I am now going to avoid in the future.

I used to be filled with red pill rage, but now I'm at the point I don't even care anymore.

I no longer believe in the ideologies of true love, soulmates, having children, marriage, cohabitation with women, this quest for finding "the one", etc. The list goes on.

I see so many of my family members, and friends going down that same path. Having kids, getting married, catering to a woman thinking it makes them a man, etc. It's all around me. And I can clearly see where it's gonna go.

To keep it simple.

The longer I've stood alone. The more I've realized that solitude is better than false companionship. You can either love a woman, or understand a woman. But never both.

This feminism shit is the greatest thing to happen FOR us men. Because it's setting so many men free. Without that ever being the intention.

I've also noticed that the more I step away from females. The more they try to reach closer. Or keep me within their grasp. WOMEN HATE TO BE IGNORED.

It's like a part of them is mad. I'm no longer simping, or white knighting. Yet, are attracted to the fact I no longer care. Or rather that I care about myself more than I do about them now. They're offering a lot more sex, and giving me more of their attention. Which I don't even want. Mainly because I'm trying to apply sexual transmutation to my life right now.

I'm aware part of it is due to that they can sense, and visibly see my transformation bit by bit. And want to test me. By seeing if I'm easily manipulated by sex.

I don't even try to give of this outlandish, bad boy, muy macho, PUA persona either. I literally try to stay incognito as much as possible.

And it's been working for the most part. But since people can notice the slight changes within my demeanor, mannerism, and the overall way I carry myself now. I think that draws a bit of attention. If that makes sense.

I've also noticed that many of my friends. Or people I used to call my friends. Are blue pilled like a motherfucker. AND DON'T WANT TO CHANGE. Whenever I USED to try and drop the smallest dime of red pill knowledge. Or small things about masculinity. They would look at me crazy.

I recently found out that one of my friends has a baby on the way, he's 18. And my initial thought was "Wow, all the things I tried to tell him about. He's now going to have to find out in a lifetime contract. That could of easily been avoided." He's gonna be a great dad for sure. And I'm sure fatherhood is a great thing for those it bestows upon, and actually aspire for it. But he's without a doubt gonna find out really quickly about some other things too.

Lastly, I've come to realize that living in a society that doesn't give a fuck about you. Isn't NECESSARILY a bad thing. Because once you become aware, and you've processed it all. You can now do what you want freely. All while not being cared about. Why would you want to be cared about in a society that's already gone to shit?