So I'm new around TRP and this is my first post so tell me if I fuck anything up.

I'm 19 a freshman in college and I discovered TRP about a week ago. In that time frame I've read nearly every post and was successfully able to swallow TRP a few days ago. It's been a crazy realization for me realizing I've been very beta-like a lot of my life. I attribute this to my mom being in control of my well-being growing up. My father was her bitch and whenever he tried to teach the best alpha lessons it would seem mommy always put him down (my father suffered from extreme bipolar) and take over parenting. This is not to say my pops did not teach me some good alpha lessons, he did, but the most valuable ones I feel were withheld. Luckily, I didn't end up nearly as beta as my older brother. Bless my mother's soul, but she gave me too many beta attributes. One of these attributes was talking about 'feelings' when I was sad. These talks were the "cure" to feeling better, but not actually doing anything about it. This, after swallowing TRP, I have discovered is a no-no.

Now I'm not going to claim there is anything wrong with discussing our feelings with others. As I have learned, male vulnerability, especially with other males, is something we should strive for. What I am going to discuss is the risk associated with discussing feelings.

Discussion of Feelings = Release from Feelings Correct me if I am wrong but I feel as if that is the most common reason people talk about feelings. However, for a second imagine a male who doesn't discuss how they feel with others. This is a man who is in control of his emotions and does not feel the need to tell others how he feels. His aura and actions display how he wishes to live and he does not need to justify it to anyone else or tell anyone else. I would generalize and say this is a dominant trait in alphas.

Betas however love to tell others how they feel about things. It is because they feel the need to be accepted by others that they are so open. They have to be heard. They are taught from childhood that their opinion really does count and people want to hear what they have to say. Often this is opposite from the truth. They want to pour themselves out to other people for justification of their existence. A real man will need no justification and can silently sit in a room and withhold his opinion and/or keep what he feels/thinks inside. This man is living for himself and realizes that his self-worth is not determined by making himself known or understood, but by knowing and understanding himself.

I have also found that my greatest successes have come from times I have manned up, not bitched, and just done what I've needed to do. Complaining = Beta. I think that as we learn to master our emotions we can better learn to master ourselves and everything we do. If we better understand ourselves it makes it much easier to focus on what we want, whether it be to get bigger, get more chicks, make a lot of money, or accomplish something else of worth. We can understand that some emotions aren't always necessarily meant to be heard but rather to be used to motivate us.

When people speak about themselves it tends bring people a sense of calmness. A feeling like something has just been lifted off their chests. It then makes them lazy and detached from what they want since now they these emotions have been released there is no need to focus on them anymore. Why not use these emotions we have as a power source and source of focus instead of releasing them so we feel better. The alpha can withstand the greatest pressure, the beta cannot.

This was just a thought. I don't claim to be right or wrong. I'm still working to better understand the ways of TRP as much as anyone else is.