I have been gambling for about 13 years, i never thought i had a problem because i always gambled "smart" and money i could afford to lose. When i lose i always double down to make back the money i lost and extra profit. I dug myself a deep hole today and i lost £34,000. This was money i was saving for my son's college tuition. I didn't want him to go into debt like other kids his age. I feel like i failed him as a father :-(

I'm not mad about losing the money, i can replace it if i put in the hours for 1 year straight. I started with £500 and worked my way up. i'm upset i spent years of my time which has be ultimately wasted now and i have nothing to show for it.

it was just a hobby until i hit the £10k mark, i figured i'd save up for my son's college tuition. I don't feel so great, and i don't have anyone else to talk to, i just wanted to vent.