Hey guys! There's something wrong going on with me. Since I'm Red Pilled (6 months) I kinda lost interest in my profession. I'm a professional musician and composer, and it seems that I lost my emotions and I can't write music since then. When I was a Blue Pilled guy, every situation (good or bad) was a motivation to compose and play, and now it seems I'm just so cold that I don't have the desire to work with music anymore. I know blue pilled world is a lie, but I feel I was way more productive when I lived in the matrix and was a "romantic" guy. I lost that motivational feeling about situations that made me happy and satisfied when playing and creating my own music. I don't know how to explain it, but it seems that my world is now gray, and I'm feeling kinda depressed after seeing the truth. I'm drinking alcohol almost every day, and can't see a bright future anymore.

Sorry about my english.