I never bothered with women till I was 23. Then a girl came along and since I was totally inexperienced and innocent I fell for really quick, I had my first kiss etc etc... I then find out she was fucking one of my good friends (ex friends). This made me super depressed. Second girl was a girl from work a year later. We hang out and do stuff, never had sex with her but I find out she is talking multiple people and a coworker of ours, also fucking him. Broke me again. Third girl was also similar but she had a cute and innocent persona, turns out she goes to swinger clubs and has had threesomes and god knows what else. So unlike many people who go through experiences and learn overtime. I was struck with the harsh reality of women in 1 year. Had my heart broken, learned about women, became depressed, and although I still do think about those experiences, I haven’t let myself get close to any woman, because no matter what they look like or how they act, awalt.