I discovered Mgtow just over two years ago after I broke up with my girlfriend. Me 33(m) her 31(f). I had my fair share of girls growing up but this was my most serious. We were together 4 years and lived together for the final 3 years. Just renting a house so no financial attachment. I made decent money at the time and she was a waitress but she always managed to split rent and all bills with me. She was pretty good that way.

Anyways we've been split up for two years but remained friends. She's been dating over the last year and I haven't even looked at a women since. She told me she's had sex with 5 guys the last year. She's riding that cock carousel. I've gone my own way and got myself heavily back into golf. I'm back to being a very competitive amateur player which has fulfilled that competitive edge I've been missing since my younger days. Feels great!

Recently I have noticed myself wanting her back. I get excited when she messages me and we have been talking a bit more then normal over the past couple months and also hanging out more. She has a guy in her life now that she told me she loves and that made me feel nauseous for some reason. I had thought I was fully over her and didn't want her at all but I think I was wrong. I'm pretty sure I can get her back if I want. What I really think I need to do is cut off all contact with her and just keep focusing on myself. I just answered my own question but for some reason I just can't get off the fence.