Hey guys. I'm still pretty new to this community but I figured maybe my story would spark some discussion. I'm not quite sure what reaction I'm expecting, but I've never really told anyone about this before.

I'm sightly above average as far as physical attraction goes for a male of my age (18). Even before finding this community, I had begun understanding principles such as AWALT, the cock carousel, etc. I just didn't know there was a gathering place where all these ideas were expressed.

While I haven't been through things such as divorce rape, STD's, or children like other people here, getting stood up 3 times in a row by the same girl and getting cheated on by the only girl I've been in a relationship with who I thought was a unicorn was enough to make me extremely angry. These girls didn't care about me, they just cared about keeping me on the hook as a "plan B". I was wasting so much time and investing so much emotionally just to be betrayed for guys that weren't even going to college, had criminal records, and just wanted sex.

It came to a boiling point when one of my friends that had been in a committed relationship for two years tried to argue that I was the problem and that I was just taking the easy way out instead of wading through the whores to find the girl for me. Fed up, I almost brought up the times that his girlfriend had cheated he took her back like a beta male. Instead, I began texting her the next day.

It surprised me how easy it is to say exactly what these bitches want you to hear and get whatever you want from them. Being on the other side of it really makes you understand how little they care about the guys they are "in love" with. AWALT. It took me less than a week to get nudes, send them to the friend, and convert him to MGTOW.

After going to college, I downloaded Tinder to try out my original goal: use these girls the same way they had used me in the past. It was easy for me to get nudes from a girl within a few hours of talking. At one point I would say I was talking to at least 13-15 girls at one time. That's around the time that I started a throwaway account and started posting the nudes I got on subs like r/gonewild and the like. I was awestruck at the number of beta PM's I got from these guys promising to buy me whatever I wanted, etc. I tried to do the right thing and make them realize how ridiculous they were being and turn them to r/mgtow but they would dip as soon as they found out that I was cat fishing them. Then I decided that I had done all I could and if I couldn't help them then I was going to profit off of them. I made a venmo and literally turned getting nudes from girls on Tinder into a hustle. I'm ashamed to write in this post how much I've made from it.

I wonder if I'm too far gone for even the support of MGTOW. Looking back, some of the stuff I've done truly is diabolical. I figured I would share and see what you all thought.