Red pilled, but somewhere in transition to GMOW

Frosty1990 · 2018-12-03T07:22:05+00:00

I’ll try to keep it short, but it’s a bit of a read since but I’ve been meaning to give my story to this sub.

I made my decision about a month ago but I’ve been redpill since 2013 when I joined the military, I got out and doubled my body count after being dumped by a girl who I had complete oneitus for. I started looking up how to get her back and instead stumbled upon how to get all types of girls in all types of situations fast forward to 2016

I met a girl I really vibed with on a vacation trip to DC this girl was me on every level, met her at a club and ended up spending my entire vacation time with her. Eventually we parted ways but I made the effort to see her again in another state. She went away to study abroad to another country and the relationship was torched from the beginning. She was a college girl from The west coast and I was a military guy stationed in the east coast.

Eventually I received some grave news later that month that I was diagnosed with late stage 3 cancer. I didn’t know how to take the news so I told everyone and for some reason I told her. My word for word,” hey idk if it matter but I just found out I have cancer just felt like telling you. She said ok sorry to here it and wished me the best.

After all this was a girl I met at the club so why the fuck would she care fast forward a couple of months after a surgery and some chemo sessions my body is now in complete disrepair from where I was a at my top physical shape. All of a sudden I get a message from the girl.

She sent me a leghthy read of how one of her friends just passed from cancer and that she wants to be more involved and help me get through what I’m going through. In my mind I was shocked. Here is this girl I was crazy about coming and telling me that she wanted to be apart of my life.

After all my treatments she came and spent a week and a half together and it felt good I got to experience what it would be like living with with her. We planned moving together getting a house in the DC area when she was done with her final semester and when I finished my contract.

Anyways after my final surgery and treatments she began to go cold. The FaceTimes and messages stopped coming my messages left on read. Eventually she ghosted me all together. I sent her a lengthy message and told her how I feel and if she doesn’t feel the same way I will disappear from her life.

She never replied, so I took that as her answer so I just removed her from all my social media and carried on through the summer of 2017

Come in the second girl

my ex I met in February 2018 who almost sounded like a unicorn. She was also ex military who has complete custody of her siblings and cousins. I thought, “ wow this girl is something else” I also thought,” holy shit does this chick has hella baggage.” Regardless she seemed like she had a good head on her shoulders so I gave it a go

At the time she was going to school in NYC but lived 2 hours away, she was couch surfing two years years at her friends house in NYC for school, she didn’t have a job and just looked a hot mess. Her purpose was just classes and driving two hours to her house with the kids.

I saw this an I figured I’d help her get more settled so she wasn’t all over the place so I helped her get her place(a classmate in my class was needed roommates) she ended up getting a job a couple months after you can say she even moved in with me for a few months after we became official, we did everything together.

Fast forward to two months ago and she texts me that she doesn’t want to be with me anymore. I was confused because I was helping this woman with everything, she got the D she got the money she got the boyfriend treatment she was getting everything the arguments were barely there. I didn’t want to get sucked in but she sucked me in.

At first it was just a fling and I disregarded all of her problems, I was getting laid so fuck it.

But I eventually got sucked in. Honestly I just wanted to make sure she was well off as someone who shares so much in common with me and someone who was in the service with me.

I wasn’t trying to be a white knight and save her from her situation I never even got involved I just wanted to make sure she was all set to go that was it so I helped her when ever she needed it

So I text her back to meet up because breaking up by text was childish. long story short she gave me a bunch of bull shit excuses as to why she didn’t want to be with me in the back of my head I knew there was another guy. So we broke up

Fast forward a week later and it turns out there was another guy, one of my family members was visiting her place one weekend literally a week after the break up and saw a guy walking around in his pajamas. Turns out this guy is her new boyfriend.

I confronted her and she simply told me that we aren’t together anymore so whatever she does it’s none of my business.

What hurts me the most is that I pulled this woman out of the garbage and made her what she is now. And the way she repays me is like this? I tried to calling and fixing but I don’t even rate a phone conversation. Eventually I found out from my family members that she was going around and telling her new boyfriend and her family that I was abusive and I constantly harassed her. Which makes absolutely no sense

I lost all respect for the woman I sent her a text telling her to not slander my name and to remember where she was before me and to have a good life. And I left it at that

Now here I am

From what I learned from woman is this, they will offer you false promises and aspirations for their ego so they look good on the social spectrum, they will use and abuse those close to them for their own personal gain. This is why I go my own way, woman don’t love you they only love what you got

If you read this far thank you for reading

3 years cancer free and I plan to live my life as I continue to go my own way, live life to the fullest don’t have any regrets

Docbear64 · 2018-12-03T05:12:57+00:00

I grew up not particularly good with girls, raised by a singlemother and a fleet of sisters. I was the biggest blue pilled simp you can imagine . I met my highschool sweetheart and in a 6 year span was cheated on twice.

by that point in my life I was soured on relationships and starting to want to know how to build myself into a better man , enter TRP I lost a bunch of weight , built a lot of confidence, grew up a lot ( almost like hitting a second puberty but it was all an intellectual and mental exercise) , and started doing much better with women .

At this point I'm still sour on relationships but women are fun .... for a while I start to get exhausted, tired, and my one psuedo relationship during this time falls apart. I start to notice a trend where it seems like women are only ok for very short stints and over time they become less fun and more like work .

The older I get the younger the average age of THOTS I meet. the last women I hung out with for a little bit were 24,24,22,and 21 ... when I was 21 I couldn't buy a date with a 21 year old .

still at this point my sample size on data for women is extensive I've fucked around a lot , I've fucked women nearly a decade younger than me and women twice my age , black ,white, latino, asian from different countries , and locals , professional boss bitches , and ditzy personal assistants . Married, single .... no matter what I do the relationship always seems to fall apart , the women always seem to be the same .

On TRP we kept bashing Men who no longer wanted to compete with women but at this point in my life I'm burned out on the chase I start to realize I spend A LOT of time chasing women and it gives me next to no reward .

I start to gravitate towards r/whereareallthegoodmen and then .... every so often take a look at MGTOW ..... eventually MGTOW I start posting to MGTOW more than TRP .

The race just seemed so stupid . then the #MeToo allegations pop up, the STD rates are reaching all time highs and I largely feel like why .... why try so hard to get something that makes me feel good for an hour maybe ?

I feel like the general quality of women is worse today than ever before, these women don't know how to do much more than spend money , eat, apply makeup, nag , and maybe fuck and suck you . still overall they consume .. they don't nourish or give ...and so I am MGTOW today .

I don't hate women , I make casual conversation with them at work, I even occasionally go out on a date but overall I feel much better about my life now that I've gone my own way and made myself the focus of my life.

I live for me now and in a world where men and boys are constantly judged based by the value and benefits we are able to give women ( and by extension our family) that can seem like a losers mantra but really I feel like I've just come to really embrace that I am the prize....

I wouldn't be here without TRP but I think MGTOW is just what happens after you've spun enough plates and don't feel like you have to live for that part of intersexual dynamics anymore but also haven't been tricked into getting married.

Frosty1990 · 2018-12-03T04:52:50+00:00

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[deleted] · 2018-12-03T12:07:36+00:00

We all desire happily ever after, the problem is we've been conditioned to think that this comes from a woman. It doesn't. It can only come from yourself.

deadBeefCafe2014 · 2018-12-03T04:29:37+00:00

Stay awhile, and listen:

https://www.reddit.com/r/MGTOW/comments/7bwt1j/thought_red_pills_are_a_maintenance_medication

PubliusVirgilius · 2018-12-03T08:51:11+00:00

Since you said you still have the desire to find a mate and live happily, watch this:

https://youtu.be/_0rczdj_ngM

Underdtand, that LTR and marriage never work out. Of course you might be able to control your marriage with lots and lots of effort, but its not worth it. You will never be able to relax or be yourself in your own place.

Ohboohoolittlegirl · 2018-12-03T10:03:32+00:00

I came across MGTOW when I was in a very fragile state in my relationship. She was showing all signs of cheating and research directed me here. It showed me the truths of her manipulation. I continued checking her out and turned out she was cheating on me, which wasn't a surprise anymore, but still hurt like shit..

After that, I knew I was never gonna do this again.

[deleted] · 2018-12-03T14:04:39+00:00

Divorce is not the only problem. It's actually a (painful) solution. The problem is living a miserable life for years and dying slowly inside. Losing your freedom and independence and your dreams. Sometimes losing your mind.

Whoever told you that you can "find a mate and live a happy life" is a liar. Those two do not go together. If you "find a mate", forget about "happiness". I don't know a man who was happy in a marriage.

Title	Red pilled, but somewhere in transition to GMOW
Author	AviationFlyer
Upvotes	18
Comments	14
Date	December 3, 2018 4:06 AM UTC (7 years ago)
Subreddit	Posted in /r/MGTOW
Original Link	https://old.reddit.com/r/MGTOW/comments/a2kywa/red_pilled_but_somewhere_in_transition_to_gmow/
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