I’ve been feeling really lost these days in terms of where I’m going what I’m doing and why I’m doing it. This year I lost 80 lbs(250->170 age 18-19), started working moved my way up through different jobs, and Ive gone back to college, I learned how to play guitar and pick locks and all sorts of weird things. I did all this because I couldn’t handle being so worthless and overweight. This all was sparked because in December I had gotten female attention for the first time. ( I could explain but its not that important) Throughout this year there have been a few girls that I’ve liked, some have liked me back but move away because of college and the others didn’t like me and just kinda fucked my shit up (one literally said the words ‘I led you on’) at this point I’m okay if there is or isn’t a girl in my life but I’ve noticed that I always have such higher levels of motivation when I’m interested in someone. I can’t shed these last 15 lbs and I’m too scared to try and keep climbing up to higher/ better paying jobs/ positions now. It seems like I could only find the will to improve myself for girls/because of girls, have any of you been through this? What should I do?