Been lurking for 3 months or so. A couple comments here and there. Not a mgtow by the rules outlined but it’s looking pretty good right now. Grew up in a house of 5 sisters, dad was a salesman. Gone for 2 weeks at a time. My first serious relationship was at age 21, now 32. It was 7 years long and ended when my gf went to vet school after completely breaking me down over 6 years manipulating through my nice guy training that was endlessly pounded into me growing up with those women.

After getting back into shape I began chasing a rebound girl, just to see if was still capable. Bars were my hangout. I eventually snagged one which later that evening in 2015 became a DUI and the hell that followed.

Eventually I got back into dating. Had a few one night stands but was still stuck on the idea of Long term relationships as a goal.

Next girl up who is my current ltr of 2 years.. also cohabitation.... I captain saved a hoe. I pay all the bills on the house, work 50-60 hours a week. Bought her a car. She got a job part time just so I wasn’t completely resentful. (Simp)

She has 10 years on me. All the accompanying red flags. Tattoos, pierced lip, died hair.. I read the rationale male, manipulated man and a few other books and learned new vocabulary for behaviors I’ve seen but not understood but can no longer unsee. I kept them in the back of my mind. Trying to spit it back up.

Things went well for a while.. tried to make a ho into a house wife. She didn’t work up until 4 months ago. Started buying/snorting Xanax. Got a dui and felony possession. I bailed her out 1100 dollars, 500 for police station, 200 for towing company. Towing company damaged car 300 dollars. Court date in two days lawyer wanted 3500 to which I paid 2000 up front and agreed to pay the other 1500 over the next three months

I told her all her future checks are mine. She agreed. Go through her phone this morning she’s picking up 175 worth of Green from a random drug dealer she met at work.

I know what I must do. Unfortunately the night before her dui arrest she got really jacked up on Xanax and face planted into my brick fireplace.

I am afraid we will claim domestic if I attempt to kick her out. tL:DR you kinda need to read it.. I’m sorry for grammar and paragraph or punctuation but my hands are shaking and I’m pretty mentally screwed up. Any advice would be great,