This isn't a joke post or a troll thing I really am trying to find meaning in my life at this moment.

I am not rich, I am not poor. I am more likely to kill myself and more likely to kill others. I am more likely to die early and more likely to become addicted to some substance like alcohol or cigarettes. (Which I am)

How do I, how do white men...with no affiliation to white men stereotypes (richness/fame/"happiness"/straight/starting life on easy mode/religious)

find their way in this world? I am not religious although I am not entirely scientific. I believe science is the answer to how but not why.

Given all that I am...How can I find meaning in my life?

I can't identify with other white men because I'm nothing like them. And I can't identify with white women because they are nothing like me. I am lost as to my religion, family, community, science and beliefs. I'm not a nihilist but I feel like one...maybe?

I am at a loss and I really need a philosophic discussion (ala Socrates) to find out why I, a white male in 2017 should feel so fucking low about himself and his future/past. Otherwise I guess there is always the Catholic Church.....please and Thank you