I can’t shake the overwhelming feeling that I have no future.

I look forward and it’s black, bleak and pure darkness.

Its illogical, irrational and massively irritating.

I know in my mind it isn’t the truth, but that’s not how it feels.

It feels so real, like I could so easily walk out into the dark sea and not come back.

It’s like nothing matters or holds a value anymore.

Like a flame inside me blown out.

It’s only a feeling, but it feels just so convincingly real.

Like I could just lay down and never get up, at a bottom of a well looking up, the light is very far away.

Writing this out helps, at least.

I’m trying to stay stoic guys, I know this shall pass.

It would just be nice to know someone can relate I guess.