All my life I've kinda been desperate for it. Been a loner. Had it fleetingly. Spent so much of my 20s unhappy because I couldn't get a gf. So much time reading pick up etc.

So yeah I'd love to just forget that desire and just spend my time on stuff I like. Or at least not feel like something is missing.

But how do you do it? Sure you can buy sex but the genuine affection? I seem to crave that so much.