Landwhale festival in the comments.

I was supposed to go over to my boyfriend's parents house with him this afternoon, to eat a late lunch and go out with them shopping. I was a bit reluctant to go because of my weight (29 BMI) and how I know they're ashamed that their boy is dating someone as far as me, but I decided to brace myself and do it anyways instead of spending my whole Saturday cooped up in my apartment.

I took a shower, dressed nicely and did my makeup and my hair with extra care so I look put together. I was sort of excited to go at this point. We get in front of their door and we hear that there are more people talking. Apparently my boyfriend's cousins and their wives and a kind where there already. Mind you, their apartment is one room and about 23 square meters and it's really small. My boyfriend looked a bit concerned my way and asked me if I wanted to stay or wanted to go back home. I was so so so damn embarrassed that I decided to leave. He waited till I was two stories down and he went in. I started crying like a moron on my way back. They're embarrassed of me, both his parents and him, they didn't want the rest of the family to see me

The thing is, I'm smart, well educated and I have a good job, I'm getting paid 45% more than my boyfriend is. I have a pretty face and even though I'm fat I'm hourglass shaped and I don't look my weight. But still, they're the ones embarrassed of me because of my weight. I feel so stupid and I have no one to talk to about these things, my parents never agreed with our relationship to begin with.

Edit: I've seen a lot of you asking if the subject was brought up before by my boyfriend and his family: yes. I'm in the process of losing weight, which is tougher than I expected due to stress, but my boyfriend's new motto is "everything that is bad in your life is because you are fat and things will be much better if you lost weight". He also said one time that he was embarrassed being seen with me in public because of this. As for his parents, they made some comments about it along the years and I know from my boyfriend that they expected us to break up soon after we started dating.

Edit2: Even though all I said is true to some extent, the post was made from a very emotional and angry place. I am insecure and I'm trying to lose weight for me, because there are some health problems running in my family that are aggravated by weight and also because I am uncomfortable with myself.