Ive been looking back and analyzing my foibles and follies as a beta male in the SMP. Ive been having some interesting notions come up as to the nature of what drives a beta male. Elaborating on these insights may prove beneficial in helping newer members like myself to understand themselves.

The belief that you are flawed or inherently unnattractive for some reason (whether physical or otherwise) seems to be a common trait among beta males.

The heart of this belief comes from introspection and self awareness. Even if you arent consciously able to put it into words what is wrong with you, on some level you know yourself to be flawed. Knowing you have a flaw and knowing what the flaw is are two very different things.

I believe that many will agree when I say that the common beta cannot identify his flaw. That whether by accident or design (or both) he has been repeatedly told he is fine the way he is and to be himself, while knowing deep down that being the self he currently is, is the problem.

The deck is already stacked. Alpha traits like confidence and discipline are the ones needed for an internal sense of self to prevail over the one modeled by external feedback. The beta male is more likely to believe what his peers tell him than what he tells himself.

Anyways, this isnt anything particularly new. All Im really doing is outlining negative feedback loops that amplify beta traits. Which I think is key to developing more alpha traits, to be able to identify and alter those loops as they occur in your life.

Now we move to the insight that made me want to type this up in the first place. I had a few instances of girls crushing on me very hard in highschool. They werent overly attractive, (the best of them was a 5, the worst was a festering pool of the accumulated grime of having lived without bathing)

Now, in my more beta days I was desperate and believed that I wanted a desperate woman for myself. For out of that shared desperation would come an unbreakable bond formed by two mongoloids clinging to what they believe themselves to be the only chance they have at sex. It made sense to me, we'd be crazy and depraved and fuck non stop.

Funny how the exact opposite happened and the more these girls made advances on me the more I found myself turned off by them. Some of them were actually kind of aggressive. Taking on a more masculine role. These same chicks went on to brow beat their grotesque boyfriends (manslaves) well after graduation im sure.

In all honesty i should have fucked the 5 as a practice girl. What has occured to me recently however is that at the time I believe I was so acutely aware of my own shortcomings (and I had a great deal of self loathing, very low self esteem) that when other people claimed to be attracted to me, ai saw it as a flaw in them. Nobody is attracted to me ever, im unlovable. If this horrid looking girl in front of me thinks im so great as I am, it speaks volumes for how much lesser she is, even more than she looks!

How many of these sexual opportunities that guys miss out on come about as a result of them failing to see their own attractiveness? I was so opposed to believing anyone could be attracted to me, that if someone said they were i became disgusted with that person. When I began the journey of self love (sounds like a euphemism for intense masturbation) this shifted more to a general inability to recognize what was going on in a situation.

I believed I wasnt attractive so it never occured to me that a girl might be doing something because she was attracted to me. It never occured to me to even think that a girl might be doing something because she was attracted. Looking back at highschool through an RP lens has revealed so many missed opportunities. Which has overall been instrumental in helping me to quash the notion that im unattractive.

Now its important to remember this is one facet of a myriad reasons why males might adopt beta traits. The writing hasnt factored in nice guy conditioning, the demonization of masculinity, etc.

I think its important to develop a realistic worldview. Understand that while you may not currently be your most attractive self, you posess a certain capacity for attractiveness. Strike the balance between "im the hottest guy ever, all women want to fuck me" and "im so fucking ugly vaginas crust over as I walk by". Personally id say to tell yourself "Im getting more attractive as i work on it, my attractiveness is a reflection of the effort i put into my life" and then occassionally for a confidence boost you can throw in a little "im the hottest guy ever, fucking look at me". Laugh at it, dont believe it 100% but feel it for a moment. Feels good right? Thats part of your reward system. Take a moment to thank yourself for the work youve put in, take a moment to reflect and be greatful towards yourself. You'll find its a great internal source of motivation.

Edit: spelling and punctuation