Since I was in high school I had the longing for a marriage and a family, but it's been a very difficult journey and I'm ready to give up on that dream finally at the age of 30 and take some time to go my own way.

My first serious GF despite us being in love sexted some guy and that was enough for me to toss her. After that I fell in love with a woman, we got married and who after not getting enough materialistic wants she decided to abandon the relationship (I was working my ass off while she stayed and home and looked for clothes, makeup and jewelry to spend my money on in an incessant way with greedy manipulative behavior). She pretty much left after she realized I wasn't super rich and that I wasn't going to become her human slave.

After her there have been flings with some women. Seems like most women are getting this constant availability of men willing to throw money and themselves at them and I'm disgusted by that. But it feels like that's becoming necessary to do, however I refuse to become some soyboy beta cuck.

Why the fuck would I want to become some female's slave? For a little pussy? I had a lot of pussy, the drama and the nagging and the female waste of time and resources and life and happiness can be very draining. Also, I've been MUCH more successful the times I've been on my own.

If there's a women out there who is willing to be equal in a relationship with me, I am 100% down. But I'm not doing this 99.9% women and the guy gets the crumbs shit.

I think men are going to start waking up as to the actual usefulness of women in this generation, because they don't do shit for the family anymore and they certainly don't have superior talent in most other situations. So why do they get a majority of the resources?