I am an 18 yo guy from the UK, nearly 19. I have been red pill aware and tried to practice this for the last 3-4 years, as you can imagine my life might not be as devastated by women as any of you, other than the fact my mother is a crazy hoarder who has completely fucked my dad up.

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A combination of this and various other things; divorce rape stories, custody rape and other shit has led me to pretty much avoid women, i have only had sex 3 times in my life with only two different girls, whilst also being kind of afraid of them, and getting attached/ falling in love.

I have pretty much decided never to get married and only plan to have a kid via surrogate if i'm rich enough when older. I don't wanna brag but compared to others my age I am in the top 99% of earnings, I have also started investing and see this as a way to retire when I am around 50. I lift regularly and box/ spar once a week. Despite this there is one hurdle I can't overcome, which is my sexual needs. Health males need sex and for me porn just makes me feel like shit, and jerking without it is pretty shit as well. Other than for purposes such as sexual fulfillment i have heard sex can increase testosterone. What I'm basically saying is, I currently actively avoid all women outside of work, but due to weight training, and lack of interaction i find myself very horny which normally leads to me using porn which i understand is not very good for me. There is a girl in the gym who has taken my interest lately and i have taken hers i think. Should i pursue? I don't really wanna waste the money on prostitutes. Sorry if this is the wrong place what with it being men going their own way, but there aren't many other places i can ask this kind of question. For some reason i have developed a crush on this gym girl now and feel myself being pulled to pursue something and i haven't experienced these feelings for a good two years. Note I also have no friends outside of my immediate family (little brother, cousin) as my best friend fucked off about 6 months ago with his gf. Cheers bros

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