Did you ever have that red pill voice inside of you that you ignored over and over again when you dealt with women and with the world? The voice inside before you even discovered The Red Pill? That feeling when you start questioning what society has taught you just doesn’t make sense. It’s this inner voice that tells you that your blue pill ways are pathetic and don’t benefit you at all? Well my friend almost all men go through this.

In my complete blue pill days when I had crushes or when I was with my girlfriend I would always question myself with basic common sense but since I was infatuated or in “love” I pushed that shit aside and kept doing stupid shit. An example of this would be the sappy crap I would do and how I would go out of my way to help girls. Captain save a hoe was who I was and I’m not proud at all to admit it but it was true at the time . I would help them and cater to their demands. Homework, studying, carrying heavy things, giving away my time to be their emotional tampon.

However deep down inside there would be a silent voice that would tell me “why the fuck you doing this? You seriously think she’s gonna reciprocate feelings just because you’re helping her out and listening to her bullshit?” Then my blue pill side would be like, “it’s what real men do. They aren’t like those assholes.” The Red Pill voice inside would be silenced by the conditioning of the Matrix aka society and the feminine imperative had done to me.

Even when my instincts and logic would kick in and make me question my surroundings and my situations with women on how I approached them, my female friends would tell me “it’s not like that, you are a gentleman and that’s very admirable” when the Red Pill voice would tell me “yo you is a bitch. You letting these girls step all over you, use you and you ain’t even getting pussy”...... but of course my blue pill self would silence my Red Pill inner voice.

Now that I discovered The Red Pill this year on the second week of January, I’ve realized that back than it was my inner red pill self that I was silencing. When I read the articles of The Red Pill and saw what I did, I saw that I wasn’t this crazy person that society would paint me to be for having internal dialogue that resonates with the Red Pill. All this time my instincts had been correct, and that I.... due to social conditioning silenced and ignored that inner voice time and time again, which only caused me despair.

Luckily I’m only 21 and I discovered this soon. Had I made anymore foolish mistakes due to my blue pilled programming, who knows where I would be. All I know is that place wouldn’t be a pleasant one. Now that I’m kinda woke, I realized that it’s the opposite now. Using the eyes I haven’t used before I can see how intersexual dynamics actually work and what society has taught us has only been the Beta Bucks side of equation and not the Alpha Fucks side. I now find myself that the reverse has occurred, where the blue pill old me is a weak voice that I must ignore and the Red Pill woke version is the one that silences it. Though sometimes the blue pill mindset can creep in as it has been conditioned to me since my childhood till the time I discovered The Red Pill.

I’m young, and I still have so much to learn. I’ve yet to that to truly experience life to its fullest and I’m still a rookie when it comes to how the real world operates. But now my eyes have been opened and I have been improving myself better than I was 4 months ago. I greatly appreciate this sub Reddit.

Thank you guys. May all of you reach Self-Actualization.

TL;DR—The old me silenced the inner Red Pill voice, the new improving me now silences the inner blue pill voice.