I can't recall when thoughts did start, probably since my High school days, but I never understood the man-woman relationships, or better, romantic relationships (RR). I felt like such an outsider, everyone just talking about these RR, boyfriend this, girlfriend that. When will you get a girlfriend, do you like someone, do you have a crush? I mean, I did have crushes, women can be very pretty, hormones did take over me, I was influenced by girls. But, even then, in my blue pill days, I didn't really understand why do man and woman need to be in RR?

Why the constant chase for RR? Or for women and men? I felt like everything that was happening around me was done because of it. Be the best you can be to get a girl. Be as popular as you can be to get a gf. Even career, or chasing money, is to get a woman. Going out with friends? Again, the reason is to have "fun", translating to, "getting a girl".

The most common topic I've heard or talked about was RR. Now it is about getting married and having children. When did it start?

I don't understand the constant need to have a romantic partner. So many broken relationships, RR lasting a month, 3 months, 2 years, then ending. A new one, It ends. A constant circle. What for? Really, what for?

There is a saying: to make something natural and accepted, talk about it all the time.

And it really seems like it. So many movies, songs, books, all the conversations, own family, friends, strangers. Even Church and Government. Where you can put your finger on, there is a source that tells you about having a romantic relationship. Like it is your purpose, it is your destiny, that is all that matters.

Such brainwashing. The torture I would say. I do not see RR as the product of Nature, as the product of something that is really into our genes and the part of us. It seems like a big lie and the very destructive one. Something unnatural becoming natural. Destined to broke the Man.

Manipulation as such a level where you focus all your energy to get into RR, to make a family, just so you do not seem unnatural. To be accepted. To feel like a healthy person. A worthy person.

But it is all to keep you in check. The hardest thing to control is a hormonal reaction. Sex is the natural thing, a need to spread own genes. But that's it. Everything else is just abusing something we don't really have control over.

Be smart and hardworking so you can be able to get a woman and keep your family safe. Educate yourself, better yourself. Brainwash a man so he fights for it. He will endure everything there is just to keep his family safe. What the control system, the best slave system of them all.

That is why MGTOW is harmful. The true MGTOW. It breaks the chains of the slave system. MGTOW can't be as controlled as others. That is a scary and dangerous thing.

I've heard about MGTOW 5 months ago. It was the most beautiful thing. Why? Because it showed me that my thoughts are not as crazy. I would like, however, if it is to evolve even more. Not for women to be the reason to go your own way. But the construct of society. The big sweet lie. Romantic relationships, marriage, all that is just a control mechanism. It is not natural.

It is, however, a warm feeling? You know, the Dream. The Fairy tale. Love is good, right? The dream of being a father, having children and family, it is a dream that is not so horrible. It is a dream that fixes all the outside problems, the bad boss, the illness, the wars, the economic disasters, the low wage, the loneliness. As such, it is no wonder that people will fight for it, fight for that Dream, that lie. Because most people just want to pretend. If I have Love, I have all, nothing else is a pain that can't be endured.

So Man is a silent one. Keeps his mouth shut while letting things be controlled. Letting himself be the slave of a system and a good dog.

I am 28 now, still kinda young I would say. I still don't understand the need for romantic relationships. I understand sex, I understand a need to have a child. Did I have RR? I did. It is not really a problem for me to get into one. But I don't see why should I. It just feels like being a slave to one more entity. My time compromised for the time of another being that feels entitled for it. My friends also take time from me, but they do it a nice way. We hang out when both sides can and feel like it. In RR that is just not the case. Whatever I do, whatever my hobby is, whatever my wage is, whatever I do/listen to/watch to/think about, is something that influences partner in RR in a very entitled bitch way.

Why would I ever want to be in RR? Why would I ever compromise my ways? Even if RR is a lie, it would be nice if it is to give you something good in return. But I see more negatives than positives to accept living a lie and accepting the brainwashing as a natural thing.

I wish I had people to share my thoughts with. I don't know anyone with whom I could talk about this topic before they try to explain me I am wrong, or, "so what if it is like that, is it really that bad?", "You just didn't fall in love", "You just didn't meet the right one", "I pity you, it is so sad that you choose to behave this way", "You will be lonely one day".

After writing this down, I now feel better. Maybe I scored a lottery and someone here shares my thoughts.