I was a pussy beta back in my 20s.

I orbited a chick who was on the outs with her long term bf ( we were in college together and the bf was a little older and back at her home town)

for a year I was an emotional tampon for her but we did share a lot of long convos. there were times we snuggled and we talked about the stars and the moon etc (very cringey)

she finally ended up breaking up with the guy and we ended up sleeping with eachother (the sex was really underwhelming)

somehow we got on the convo of cheating and she says " i never cheat, I am very against cheating. I waited until i broke up to sleep with you"

meanwhile she was emotional cheating on her bf with me for a year. long talks, snuggling on the couch and talking, going for walks, sharing meals. it was the emotional part of a relationship, we just didn't have actual sex.

so she only views cheating as her vagina being used, because she knows thats her only true value. all the mental stuff and cuddling and blah blah blah she does not view that as any menaingfuil value she brings. the only meaningful value she has is her stink hole, so as long I didn't have access to that it wasn't cheating but having access to her mind and heart was just fine. I'm sure it wasn't even true access to her mind or heart anyway, just a clever game (clever girl - Jurassic park)

they know deep down inside the gash is the only thing they bring to the table.

when I red pilled in my late 20's and early 30's so much shit made sense to me from my youth.

TL/DR . go your own fucking way.