Got my first girlfriend about a year and half ago. I always thought I would be happy if I had a girlfriend. Then I got one and was happy for about the first 2 months and after that it became just okay. Now I want out and to go my own way. I miss the freedom. I hate talking an hour every night on the phone. I hate worrying about checking my phone. I'm always drained. I miss being able to get up and bike 100 miles and camp in the woods. Now I can't do that. I'm afraid I'll end up getting married and having kids. Neither I want. But I'm afraid I'll miss her once I leave.

Her mom and dad are separated. Her mom has a boyfriend and they live far apart. Her mom cheated on her dad. She tells me she still loves him though. She doesn't even have a job or anything. She sits at home (he bought) and watches tv all day. She was complaining he didn't have much retirement for them to split. She is going to get the house and everything in the divorce. I don't want that. Everyone of her mom's family members cheated on their partners. I honestly keep see my girlfriend ever cheating on me, but idk.