I have been redpill aware for about 2 years now. It has helped me tremendously. Lately I have fallen back into the sadness phase, the realization of hypergamy and how no women will ever love you the way you want to be loved. Getting girls isn’t really the problem, it’s getting them to stay. The best sex ive ever had was about a month and a half ago, I fucked this girl 4 times in one day. She did it all, from calling me daddy to licking my ear. If I was able to fuck her 4 times, I thought to myself surely, I can make her a consistent plate. I was wrong, haven’t heard from her since. Oneitis isn’t the problem here because I have hooked up with chicks after her. Yesterday I was at a party and this one girl was literally throwing herself at me, grabbing my hand, dancing with me, kissing me on the neck. At one point this same girl said, “If you want to kiss me you have to kiss my friend”. So, I kiss her friend then she comes in and kisses both of us at the same time. As you can imagine my endorphins were through the roof, the rest of the night we continue dancing and talking. Unfortunately, the party I was kicked this first group of girls out, so the next wave of girls could come through. I grab her hand and pull her in for a kiss, but she refuses and tells me to hit her up for the after party. I don’t know if my writing is currently coherent but I’m just feeling pretty down and in a rut. I don’t just want hookups anymore, I want genuine companionship, girls to desire me in more than a sexual way. I hope I don’t sound beta, but I just have to get this off my chest. How do I overcome this sadness (the realization of hypergamy I guess)? How do I form better connections with women? (Already lift, dress decently, have a goal to graduate college this spring, joining navy post grad)