Its not that i want my ex back its that im fucking dumbfounded trying to understand what they see in the dudes they choose. I am literally on top of the world right now in building value and being valuable. More than most men id say top 20% forsure. Yet my last ex decided a broke deckhand was the dude whe wanted to fall in love with despite me pushing all her sexual limits, reaffirming how perfect i am in her words and displaying it by sucking my cock like a champion.

My ego or something else feels the deep pain in my chest of heartbreak only because i know shes in love with another dude that isnt me after everything she did and said. How do i just get over this? This is a recurring theme in my dating life. Am i too valuable ?