Hey guys, I have swallowed the red pill for about a year now, I have begun psychotherapy about 8 months ago when I was rejected by a girl when I asked her to start an LTR. This kinda fucked me up so I begun therapy after this. I have been spinning plates some time now, anxiety has not appeared at this time. So last month or so this girl appeared in my life and it has been pleasant until yesterday. I have been considering her for an LTR because she has done things for me and has treated me like a king. Yesterday she started shit testing me by ghosting and applying dread to me and anxiety has appeared again. It was so bad that I wasn’t able to have an erection because of this. I will see my psychologist tomorrow but he pointed out that I need validation from others and I have a fear to get into relationships because of past emotional rejections.

Any advice? I haven’t been able to sleep or be at peace. This is eating me alive.