I've been MGTOW for just about a year maybe more. Due to lurking and reading new material over time, I've internalized key tenets of MGTOW. I'm only 21 years old, and also don't have a ton of experience with women.

This summer, the life guarding company I worked for has a visa program where international students my age come to work for the season (mostly Russians). Through an american/int'l mix party, I met a Russian girl who told me she was interested in me day one. She's from Moscow, fairly intelligent and does a lot of dancing. At the time I met her, I was intoxicated and had no interest in her at the time.

About a week later, there's a movie night at her apartment. There's a smaller group, and I go sit next to the girl, as I told myself "What's the worst that could happen?". We get a little touchy feely and then we go back into her room and fuck. The first time around, I had a hard time getting it up because it was dark and it's been a while since I've had sex and I was intoxicated once again. A few nights later, I was a deity in bed.

This situation sprung from a 1-2 time fling to me actually being interested in her. I think it was the sex that did it. Don't get me wrong, she's very cute, but something changed where she became more and more attractive as time went on (Oxycontin). Also, she is from a different culture and it's so cool to see how she does things differently.I hung around her and her friends and managed to pick up some Russian (I was told most people don't pick it up as fast, or at all.) I was also told from an American buddy (that also is dating a Russian) that I am the best she's ever had in terms of sex, a surprise on my part.

My issue was that she is leaving in a few weeks to go back to Moscow, and I didn't want to develop too far of a relationship with her. I found a rift in my brain/biology, as I wanted to keep my freedom as a MGTOW, but also wanted to be with her. She asked me at one point if we were together, and I said yes, as I wasn't seeing anyone else. I told her I didn't want to do LDR because my personality type (ENTP) wouldn't allow it. I probably wouldn't cheat, I would just get sick of having chains on me/ having to manage communication from such a distance.

I thought she would be super sad/upset, but I honestly think the dick was so good, she didn't care. She left last night with the rest of our Russian friends to go on travelling trip to different states. She will come back for a few days after, and then that's it. I'm a bit sad, seeing all my friends I met go, but there is nothing I can do. I even said I would visit her in Moscow, as the conversion rate of USD to RUB is phenomenal and overall, wouldn't be expensive.

I thought this short term experience (about a month) would be the catalyst to go out there and find FWB, but I feel like I will revert back to MGTOW, as circumstances out there in the playing field are not only bullshit, but egregious to go through. Thanks to this experience, I could see if I was missing out on anything.

Sex/Intimacy with a person feels wonderful, but ultimately isn't needed. I think I'll fuck around in waves, but I wasted so much energy/time I could've used towards other ventures. As I said, she will back for a few more days in September and that's it. If circumstances were different, I would date her, but in the back my head the MGTOW philosophy rings truth. I don't want to get caught up in anything now, nor ever really, other than short term.