At the start of 2013 I decided to make make some changes in my life. I was tired of feeling sorry for myself and I wanted to become happier. Since then, I have bettered myself in many ways. I used to be socially awkward, but I can talk to people openly now without too much trouble. I made lots of friends. Got into great shape. But the one thing I haven't been able to get is a girlfriend.

Today I received my 1000th rejection from one of my best friends. 1000 "no"'s and not a single "yes." For some reason I kept count in the back of my head, I didn't actively do it. I automatically keep count of a lot of things in my head, not just this. My brain just does it. Some were girls I thought seemed cool, some were good friends, and some were just girls I saw reading a book I liked. -.- I fucking hate being short and unattractive.

Every post I have ever read in regards to dating on reddit includes this quote "you miss 100% of the shots you don't take." So, I put myself out there and ask ~600 girls out in the space of 4 years and I'm a creep? Do you think that is easy to do? I'm trying. I have tried so many different approaches, read so many different books and articles. Most of the girls I asked out were girls I struck up conversation with in the street/bookshop/etc. I would talk to them for 10 minutes and if I liked her, she was interesting, and she seemed interested in me, then I would ask for her number. Some of them were friends, who I grew to like over time - no, not women who I befriended for the sole purpose of dating. I don't understand why everyone automatically assumes the worst of me. I'm not just waiting by girls houses or asking the same girl out everyday. I'm a normal guy.

If I had only asked 15 girls out, everyone would tell me that it's a numbers game. You just cannot win.