I know you guys will called me a loser and i dont care, go ahead blast me with all you got.

(See previous post for past stories)

So i decided to give her an other chance, her parent flight all the way from China to be with us, they say family is the most important thing. They stay here and cook for us, bring us out in restaurant, they even clean my car. They are really nice people, you can tell they really love us.

They know we have a lot of fight, I told them everything she did, assault me, kick, bite, punch, yelling. So they made us sit all the family together, we both wrote a contract basically saying no more of this. One thing i need to point out; we have a join account, one of the rules is to never withdraw money from it because it is for buying a house in the future, on the last fight, we both withdraw our money from it.

So we sign this contract, her dad drop 10 000$ on the table and tell me, ''this is just the start, once my daughter have her Permanent Resident card and a good job, i will buy you a house'' Note that i have to sponsor her so she can get her PR card.

So the next day is beautiful, we drive all the way to the beach, i cook for all of them steak on the fire camps, we put up a tent, we all take a nap, with the sound of the wave. In the tent my wife told me "This is heaven! I am with the 3 most important person in my life! i am so happy! I love you all!" Beautiful fucking day hum?

So we start packing, we are about to go to a fancy butcher for good meat for supper.

I am driving with all of them in my car, on the highway, I told her I put back all the money i withdraw from the join account and she should do the same, this is in the contract, this money is for the family for a house. So she start to get angry, she tell me she need the money to pay for the apartment she rent for her parent, but I know she already pay for it, I told her to not lie. So she back down telling me she actually need to money to pay for her credit card. She actually telling me all this while yelling at the top of her lung while smashing the car. I remind you i am driving on the highway at 100 km/h. Her mom is yelling at her to calm her down, her dad start crying.

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My wife throw me a really strong punch on the side of my head, while i am driving on the highway. Almost lost control of the car. I manage to stop the car safely in a safe spot. I get out of the car, i was so angry, i wanted to kill her. So i started to punch myself in the face until my nose explode like a tomato. Her dad get out of the car, get on the ground and start vomiting, because he is so shame of the action of his daughter. He grab me by the arm and beg me to stop hurting myself, he told me to hit him, he said he deserve it, he said he fail the education of his daughter. While my wife keep yelling and calling me a garbage.

I propose to drive her parent back to her apartment, they about to get in the car, my wife charge me, she was about to kill me. I had to left, i left all of them on the side of the highway. She have a phone, i know she can call a taxi.

I block her phone, block facebook, close the join account, change the lock of my apartment. This happen 2 days ago, she left me countless message with a unknown phone telling me she is "sorry", she is "nothing without me", "beg me to call her back". She even come at my door, banging on it, while crying "i am sorry" If she is capable of doing this in front of her parent, imagine what she can do if we are just me and her? pure fucking Mayhem.

We had a beautiful dream ahead of us, she lost everything. She choose anger over her husband, future kid, Permanent Resident card, a house, her career and the unconditional love i had for her. She leave me no choice, i cant put up with this violence.

Her parent left for China this morning.

I am dead inside, she is a demon of anger, how can a human possibly act like this? everything was fine! we had a beautiful dream ahead of us and she destroy it all.

You guys were right, no matter how hard i try to have a family, work hard, be a good husband this is never good enough. She will get angry no matter what I do. I try to deny the truth, took a huge pile of blue pill and it exploded in my face.

For the love of the gods, please help me get through this, I am not suicidal but how can I live my life after such a event?